I’ll be honest. Death has been a great big part of my life. I’d say it’s hit close to home, but that would be a lie.

It hit home.

Twice.

So although I’m not one of those people who has some obscene fascination with death, it’s certainly something I’ve been intimately exposed to.

In fact, we’ve all had our brushes with death, whether by our own experiences (I fell through a roof once when I was about 15 – I remember not being able to breathe and thinking “I can’t breathe anymore. This is it. I’m gonna die.”) or because we knew people who died.

And I do want to point something out. I don’t like to filter the language in describing death. I don’t say “passed away” or “went to a better place”.

It’s death! It’s not supposed to be pleasant or easy to say. It’s tragic and it’s painful.

And so, with all of that comes the narrative of this series. The idea came to me in November of 2009 and I immediately knew I wanted to illustrate the quiet and lonely suffering we all endure when confronted with the death of a loved one.

Many thanks to Kari Hawker (model), Ashlen Saunders Duke (hair stylist), Shanda Palmer from FaseItMakeup (makeup artist) and AultoRest Memorial for allowing us to shoot there!!

I was sadly unable to shoot or even attend Alisha’s wedding when she got married to her handsome husband earlier this summer. I was already booked for another wedding on her big day.

When I first met Alisha, she was one of the more depressed people I knew. Soon after we met and worked together on a few projects (all film projects at the time), she got divorced and went through a horrible separation process while I watched helplessly from the sidelines.

She was a wreck.

And I didn’t realize how much of a wreck she was until I saw her transform into the happiest version of Alisha I’ve ever known.

So what defines a person? What makes them who they are? Well. Sometimes, it’s another person.

Here’s Jeremy, Alisha and their kids:

And here’s some random model shots of both of them. Can you tell who I’ve worked with most between the two? Oh and check out the contact section of my website. It has Alisha yelling into a megaphone :)

Just two weeks before this couple’s wedding day, I got a frantic call, asking me about my availability…

I’m glad I was available! These guys were a ton of fun to work with :)

It wasn’t until I was working close-up on his eyes on my giant monitor that I noticed Ryan had differently colored eyes! I never had a clue before that, and my first thought once I did notice it was “Ah crap! What did the camera do?!” so I started looking at all the other shots and couldn’t find one with as striking a difference between each eye.

But then that’s why Ryan selected the first image as his printed headshot. As an up-and-coming actor recently moved to Salt Lake City, he wanted to make that obvious to any potential employer.

I know I just barely posted about her, but here’s a test shoot I did with my new Holga and off-camera lighting. Dani’s holding the old broken Holga.

It can’t just be me… Emma looks a lot like Jennifer Aniston to everyone else right?! Especially that square image!

Jason and Emma were so much fun to work with. And lucky too; good light followed us everywhere we went despite threatening skies in the morning.

What can I say about Dani?

Dani is my close friend. That’s the first thing that comes to my mind. We have a good, solid friendship that I’ve cherished since it began.

A talented model with whom I’ve worked many, many times, she’s finally moving to L.A. in just a few short months to pursue a career in acting. Now I can’t say I’m crazy about L.A., but I’m unapologetically excited for her to leave Utah in pursuit of far greater heights than I feel she could ever have reached here.

Man am I gonna miss her…

Because beyond all of that, she’s full of life, full of energy and positivity, and best of all, it’s infectious. You can’t help but feel better when you’re around her. You can’t help but turn into a goofball when you’re around her.

Well ok, I can’t help but become a total goofball when I’m around her.

So when she decided to pretend like her hands were having a mostly violent conversation with one another, well…

That’s just Dani :)

And here, just for kicks, are all the best images from all the shoots we’ve done together, starting with what could very well be the last shoot we do together for a long long time. How apropos that it be a gradual evolution as she prepares for a new adventure of her own.

Evolution:

There’s nothing quite like a little diversity here in Utah. It’s refreshing.

Even luckier for me, these guys were from the Middle-East. So the food was familiar (coussa, fatoush, wara’ anab… mmmmmmm), the language was familiar (I spoke Arabic to them half the time while the other half of the time, my flawless American-English turned into a heavy Arabic accent), the culture was familiar, the generosity was familiar; everything. And once I revealed to them that I was Lebanese, I became a lot less threatening with that giant brick of a camera in my hands.

Felt just like home.

To top it all off, Firas and Emma were, as with all my clients it seems, a dream to work with.

Here’s my favorites from the day:

The project continues… Introducing my good friend Lexi!

Lexi works as an event planner at the beautiful and classy Grand America Hotel in downtown Salt Lake City.

When I asked her what she wanted to do as the second shot, she quickly decided that she wanted to show off her shoes. She has a TON of them piled sky-high in her closet, so we picked just a teeny tiny selection of her favorites and went outside.

I love how these turned out:

Before I end this blog post, I’d like to clarify something important:

You don’t necessarily have to feel you’re not photogenic to be in this project.

Apparently some people felt they shouldn’t be part of it because they already like themselves in pictures…

So let me completely clarify the two criterion for this project:

You have to be a human being and still be alive.

So if you’re a dead sea-turtle, I’m afraid I can’t help you.

If, on the other hand, you’re a client of any kind (future or past), if you’re an acquaintance, if you’re a friend of a friend, if you’re a complete stranger to me, if you’re an actor, a model, an electrician, a plumber… You get the idea. All are welcome, regardless of how you feel about yourself (photogenic or not).

Hope that clears things up :)

These guys were just…

Fun.

Between their beautiful, low-key backyard reception and their ultra-low-key escape shortly after cutting their cake (they literally sprinted over to the neighbor’s house where the rental car was waiting – all without announcing a single thing to any of the guests), this was a wedding experience all its own. Not to mention Martin had some very inspiring stories to tell of his service in Iraq.

And before I forget…

I’m usually pretty good about staying out of guest’s picture-taking, but I totally walked into that dude’s shot… Sorry about that!

Still though, kind of a cool capture :)

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